Did you ever feel the whole universe is against you?

Since the pandemic happened majority of things that happened and is still happening in my life dwells on the negative. While there are still things that I can be grateful for, a lot of things gave me too much pain and stress. My finances before pandemic has been stellar but started to go downhill when pandemic started, right now I am drowning in debt and jobless. I have listened to faith in humanity for different instances. My stress level is at its optimum and I am having breakdown every now and then.

The thing is I am not a bad person, I have no negative records, have not done bad things to others; I have always colored within the lines, so to speak. For me, nothing that is happening right now is making any sense. I feel that any step forward will resort to two or three steps backward. I am so tired and I already have thoughts of getting away from all this. I am not proud of myself anymore and I am starting to lose any self-confidence I still have. I am so lost?

Any one else who can relate?