Did happiness come naturally or did you work for it ?

I feel like I'm internally just not happy and feeling peace or that sense of proud. Like I haven't done anything great in my life that I could be genuinely proud of or even show off to others like most people do on social media and in real life too. They talk about their accomplishments from graduating college to working at some well known company. Having a good physique. Whatever it maybe.

I feel like I've just been ignoring my life goals on purpose and somewhat put it on universe that everything will be fixed as time goes by. But nothing really changed as time has gone by, the only major difference I've noticed is I'm extremely extremely behind in my life. And it gonna be very hard to get back on the top when you have lost the consistency and mental resilience to face life. No wonder why I'm always in this worry overthinking overwhelmed defeated mode. I clearly lack confidence and have major low-self esteem.. because I'm not taking actions and risks in my life. I know it's not rocket science to learn driving. But sighs I've been ignoring that fear for almost 6 years now. Driving will open so much doors in life. I could be able to go work, college, road trips, doing errands and feeling sense of responsible adult. I know deep down that if I overcome this fear. I'll be so happy and confident. I'll get more resilient to overcome more problems. But I'm stuck at one place forever.