I am a teen who does everything against the rules, and mostly because I get away with it. I have been so exceptionally good at coming up with lies on the spot and turning the situation into my favour that I've forgotten how to work hard to get something, I just lie or do something that's borderline or completely against the rules. From sneaking in from the back gate to cheating on a test, I feel like I don't face consequences for my actions. Out of probably 100 situations that could've easily expelled or gotten me in deep trouble, I've always found a way to lie and save myself from that situation. I thought it was a talent to lie so easily and convincingly until now. Recently I've been caught (this is like the first time it ever happened), I was caught cheating on my math test, I've gotten straight As in math half my life and ever since 11th began, it's been going downhill and I haven't been used to see myself struggle at academics so I resorted to taking a sheet with all the formulae to the test. I know the concepts and how to apply them I just cant seem to learn all formulae. This was probably the 10th or 11th test I tried something like this with and I've never been caught until now. The invigilator threatened to complain the authorities and my parents and I'm genuinely starting to get a little afraid and I've convinced myself to quit living life in such a way. I couldn't bare to see my parents or my peers look at me differently just because I wanted a statistics formula. If I hadn't gotten caught I'd probably still continue to do this and convince myself by saying "its not wrong to cheat its wrong to get caught" or some other lame sigma quote. But ever since I've gotten caught it feels like the universe is signaling me to stop and try to correct myself. Has anyone else faced such issues?
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