Break up

Beginning of this year I took my ex back that cheated on me and got with someone else moved in with the person and everything for 2 years then when they broke up in December he hit me up January and I took him back. For the almost year we’ve rekindled I was only happy in the beginning because I felt like I won him back but I really wasn’t happy a lot things he did bothered me , what he did was always in the back of my mind . And I just didn’t feel physically attracted to him anymore.

Now I recently told him I no longer want to speak to him and he called me ungrateful and all these things then blocked my number and I am just hoping I can stop this cycle because I am already feeling sad and wanting to tell him nvm . Idk.

I just don’t know I help to move on and realize I deserve better I should’ve never even took back someone who cheated on me and was with the person for two years moved in with each other and everything and that wasn’t the first time he cheated on me we’ve been on and off since 2017 and he’s my first everything so I feel Like that attachment has a lot to do with some stuff idk