Being at your lowest

I am having a very hard time lately, and here are parts of the thoughts i help myself with: I am here to understand myself, to be in harmony with who I am, i shouldn’t be looking for answers everywhere. I am on a journey now (my studies) and i am finishing it, that does not necessarily mean that i like it. I might end up liking it, I don’t have to figure everything out right now. I know it’s hard, it’s very hard looking at the future and having no clue about it and being super scared. Life always finds a way so I will. I believe we are here to experience, to just be, and we shouldn’t be defined by anything neither a career nor a country or job etc… We shouldn’t always have a specific purpose, our purpose could just be to just live and be okay with ourselves and knowing everyday by itself is an experience.

I know i am super scared in terms of what if i am sabotaging myself and i am not taking the correct road. But what if I understand that it’s okay not to know, and it’s fine to try. Maybe it’s an identity crisis idk ( I am 23 yo)

This year has been the most difficult year in my entire life, i felt at my lowest and i was very weak and i am still vulnerable until now. I am even somewhat numb to any motivational talk or quotes or whatever you call it. Sometimes i just feel like life is fake, everything we are doing is fake, and why am I here or why i am doing so much effort. I even feel like I lost a part of myself, as one year ago i was a very confident and optimistic person, while for the past 7 months i’ve been kind of pessimistic and less confident.

Any good ideas or thoughts to help me get through this are appreciated.