Ashamed of myself

I (19f) graduated last year and I started college (community) right away. I was doing really bad, my mental health was terrible throughout the whole year, and I performed terribly during my first year of school. I didn’t earn very many credits and I failed a class twice. I decided to take the first semester off of this year and head back for the winter semester I’m also switching schools. But honestly I feel ashamed of my choices and how I did last year, I fear anybody I know asking me about school because I don’t wanna have to explain what happened or why I’m gonna be graduating much later than my class. I still want my degree and I’m gonna work for it, but I’m just afraid that I’m making choices that are dumb or that are getting me nowhere, I’m also embarrassed at the fact that I did do bad my first year and am basically starting over at a new school with a new degree program.